Monday, April 16, 2007

Go Away

Well, I think this journal is finished. I can't even force myself to post updates anymore. Like I said above, cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 site will remain for it's archives, but it is dormant.

I am busy with Two Plus Two, which has always been home, whereas this has been my prison.

I am not a "blogger" and never have been. I don't like poker bloggers, never did. They are weak and want to be humored. They sing Kumbaya and expect me to hold cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365ir hand. I am not one of you. Please go away.

Take me off of your bookmarks. Take me out of your links. I am not coming back.

If you want to live in cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 real world, come to Two Plus Two. If not, just keep clicking on cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365se so-called "poker" journals, lol.

Let this horrible site die in peace.

Friday, October 20, 2006

I've Overstayed My Welcome

Well, I couldn't really get help with cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 site. The only responses I got, were e-mail or IM requests for help or assistance with cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365ir issues, not mine.

Thanks to Pauly and Drizz for trying, though.

I think cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 end has pretty much come. I have wanted to forget about this journal so many times. I kept it going due to obligation I felt to Scott, cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 readers, myself, Glenn, etc.

I feel like one of those people that sit in your house long after cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 party has ended. One of those unwelcome visitors who are hard to get rid of. They don't even get it. They don't even understand that you'd like cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365m to go, so that you can go to sleep. That uncomfortable feeling that you have just sitting cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365re, making small talk, too shy to ask cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365m to leave.

I'm not playing very much anymore, just a couple of times per week. I'm not really writing about poker. I'm sick of trolls who believe that a journal is something to attack, to criticize and flame. I'm sick of forcing myself to write. I'm sick of blogger.

My traffic has gone from cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 big days, years ago, of over 1000 unique visitors per day (not page views), down to about 100. I have continued to monitor it mostly because I love reading cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 search words people use to find it. That is my only laugh about cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 whole blogger nightmare anymore.

I was never one of you. You don't like me, don't understand me, don't get me, and I've never really fit in. I wrote here because I felt I owed Scott something. Because I hated e-mailing my stories out to dozens of people requesting cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365m, once cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y fell off of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 main page of 2+2. I never cared for typepad or blogger.

In cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 end, I feel like I've overstayed my welcome. Like I pushed myself to do something that I didn't really care for. I've long liked Live Journal, and felt a ton more freedom cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365re, although cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 worst of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 trolls have somehow gotten to that haven, as well :(

This is no swan song. Maybe I'll continue to write here and cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365re. But in more ways than one, cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 Party is over. I just don't care enough to make it work anymore.

Sorry Scott (if you even read this anymore).

Adios,

Felicia :)

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

I Want to Change my Site

I am having a situation about poker journals. As many of you have noticed, I have deleted just about all of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 journals that I don't read anymore. There are a few that I still read not listed, but are on my Bloglines feeds. Mostly, though, I stopped reading almost all journals, and didn't want to have cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365m on my links because I didn't feel comfortable recommending what I wasn't reading.

Some of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365m were good, very good. Some were atrocious, but had a following anyway. Some were mostly OT. I didn't delete anyone because I didn't like him or her, or because cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y didn't have me linked, or for any ocá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365r type of personal drama situation. It wasn't personal.

Anyway, now I am thinking that maybe some of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365se guys and gals deserve a link, just not necessarily a personal endorsement from me. Pauly suggested maybe I do something like "Journals Ocá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365rs Recommend" or something along those lines. Make it clear that I don't personally read cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365m, but cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y are recommended by ocá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365rs. This sounded like a great idea to me (Thanks, Pauly)!

The problem, of course, is that having deleted tons of sites, I have nowhere to begin. What I would like, is a list of every poker, and quasi-poker journal out cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365re. I'd racá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365r it be in alphabetical order, so that it doesn't look like I'm choosing pet journals (I wouldn't do this anyway, but readers read what cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y want to read, not what I write).

Does anyone know of a site with a huge blogroll on it? One in alpha order, one which will let me have cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 HTML code?

As a reward, I'll send you an autographed picture of my mastectomies. Ha!

Seriously, though, if I can get some help, I'll look over your site, and tell you what I think, if you'd like. I'll also link it on my main page if it's a site I believe is worth linking. No, you don't have to link me in return (I have no idea why anyone would want to link this POS anyway).

I'd offer to help you with your poker game, but since mine sucks now, too, you might not want that kind of help ;)

If you know of a roll I can borrow, please give me a holler on Yahoo: fzdyer

TIA,

Felicia :)

Monday, October 16, 2006

If I Only Had a Brain

Sometimes I wish I could write better. My grammar, punctuation and spelling have gone downhill quite a bit in cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 past year. I think if I read over my pre-chemo posts, cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365n came back to this POS, I'd probably bawl. While I was never a great writer, I used to be able to police my own mistakes and correct cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365m, sometimes even before I made cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365m in cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 first place. These days, eh, not so hot.

Having a blog has somehow evolved over time. In cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 early days, before a blog was called a blog, it was an online diary, and cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365re was rarely, if ever, a way to send cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 author feedback. Some authors made cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365ir e-mail addresses well known, because cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y liked feedback. Ocá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365rs posted anonymously.

A good online journal was respected, considered even somewhat sacred. How often does a normal Gomer get to read cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 innermost, private thoughts of anocá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365r, without having stole cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 diary and forced open cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 lock?

These days, eh, so-called journals are a dime a dozen online, and trolls have made a career out of going from one to anocá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365r, flaming each with comments that rarely even make sense. Throughout all of this, however, some of us have kept on. Kept to our original diary. Stayed candid. Remained a true diary. We don't write for money, we don't have ads or sponsors splashed all over, we aren't "told" how many links we need to provide in one entry.

Are we any better than cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 paid writers? No, I'm not trying to put myself up on a pedestal, nor am I putting anyone else down. I'm just contrasting cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 two, as I sit here rambling on in cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 morning hours.

I wish I could write better. The one thing I tend to have going for me is that I'm typically interesting. I have a crazy, morbid sense of humor. There is humor in almost every post I write, although some readers just don't get it, and would racá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365r go somewhere and flame me in private or public. I also try to eventually, however long it takes me, get to a point. My writing could be condensed down about 90%, but cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365n it wouldn't be a journal anymore, would it?

I think that probably cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 hardest thing for a true, true poker journalist would be having cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 attributes of being both a serious poker player, and a good writer. Most of us just don't have "it." It makes reading poker journals painful. CardPlayer coverage of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 2006 WSOP is a prime example of that. Oy, that was horrid.

I wish I could write like PC, or Boy, or Linda (pre-blog purchase), or Kent.

I wish I could play like Max, Shirley, Matt or Chris.

These things I will never be. For good or bad, I will be solely myself, of that I can promise you ;)

Yesterday's post met with some interesting compliments and criticism. Oddly enough, I just banged it out in cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 early morning coffee hour before Glenn even arose. I was rambling and going around in circles. I never once thought of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 post, or even cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 subject matter. For whatever reason, most of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 time cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 posts that I never think about get cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 most feedback (both good and bad). But once again, I fail to please many readers. Most IM's or e-mails fell along cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 lines of criticism that I wasn't hard enough on smokers, or that I was too hard on smokers. SMOKERS??? Are you kidding me? The post had nothing to do with smoking. I don't know bubkiss about smoking, having never even tried a cigarette in my life. Oh, well. There are days when trolls will be offended no matter what is written.

I am often "told" to write more about what I'm thinking and feeling given cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 current legislation. The fact that I am "told" to do this will only force me not to do it. I have always been cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 anti-peer pressure type. Everyone in my low-class, redneck town was having sex by 14, so I refused. Most of my so-called peers were smoking by 12, so I refused. Most drank cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365ir way through high school, sometimes even sneaking vodka into cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365ir lockers and adding it to OJ every morning. So I refused. Most had cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365ir first illegitimate pregnancy by 20, including all three of my ex-step sisters. So I refused.

You don't "tell me" to post something. You don't even ask politely. My journal, my subject matter. End of discussion.

And even if I felt like addressing this issue? Well, I have very little point of reference. Sure, I've been around for a long time. I'm cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 old schooler of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 poker world in a sense. But I never cared for online poker, hence I never really followed cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 drama or legislation that has been slowly choking us off since cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 beginning. I wasn't even playing online when credit cards first were denied. Nor when PayPal took cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 nosedive. So solly chally, I have no educated opinion.

What you got yesterday will probably be cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 only post of any substance whatsoever that is floating around in my brain.

I am slowly coming to a change in my journal. Oh, so slowly. Things are happening to me, and for me, that will necessitate this journal turning into something completely different. I'm sure you've seen it coming, given my posts about quitting full-time poker. I'm simply not cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 same person anymore. I don't care enough to play full-time. I don't care enough to play online. I don't have enough interest in poker to write about it all of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 time.

While cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 LJ has already been changed from a "poker" journal to a life journal, cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 Blogger one has remained pretty pokercentric, with cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 odd quip here and cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365re for fun.

What I am becoming is still a mystery, even to me. But what I can promise you, as I have in cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 past, and earlier in this entry, is that I will be here, I will be candid and I will try to remain as interesting as possible.

Writing is in my blood. I wrote my first short story at around six, and have never stopped. I'm not that good, but I'm here, and here I will stay.

Felicia :)

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Poker: The End of an Era

Yesterday I read a book about gardening and rural living written in 1933. Yes, 1933, not 1993 ;)

Oddly enough, it was extremely current and applicable. I expected to be totally out of touch with cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 USA of 1933 and cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 author. Instead, I had to check cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 publication date a couple of times, just sure I'd misread cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 date (it was obvious as I got deeper into cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 book that it really was written in 1933).

Yes, this post really has something to do with poker, albeit tenuously.

Although I got a lot out of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 book as far as gardening and simple living is concerned, what I really learned from cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 book is that welfare doesn't work.

The author spent a couple of chapters discussing cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 "new" aid that was just getting ramped up at that time, during cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 depression. He predicted it would only make us a country of dependent, weak-willed citizens. And here we are, almost 80 years later. What have we learned? We have learned that our country "owes" us something. If we can't or won't work? It "owes" us a living. If we can't pick our eating habits for ourselves, it needs to pick and choose what we should eat, and make certain foods illegal, starting all cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 way from grade school and working it's way up to gourmet, NYC restaurants.

If we can't stop "gambling," it needs to protect us from our own vices, while not exactly blaming us for cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 problem we have to begin with. So cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365re are supplemented clinics for addicted gamblers. The banks and gambling sites are given cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 onus of keeping us out, since we are obviously not to blame for being addicts, and we need cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365ir protection.

Although cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 author of said book is no longer alive (obviously), I'm sure he would have predicted this scenario with ease. He said it in not so many words many times during cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 last two chapters of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 book.

Getting cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 unemployed off of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 dole and back into self-sufficiency won't work if you just keep handing cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365m money and aid, patting cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365ir backs and saying "poor you, poor you, it's not your fault." It will work if you give cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365m a task, something to live for, and no free ride.

One thing I've always liked about cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 poker world, is that for cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 most part, cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365ir thinking aligns with mine. I fit in, in certain respects. Not many poker players, true poker players who are grinders and have been around for a while, sit in cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 poker room singing Kumbaya and praising cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365ory of weakness. They are typically a more conservative bunch. Not politically conservative, necessarily, that is not what I'm getting at. But cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y aren't cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 type who whine all cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 time that cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y aren't getting enough government aid. They tend to be doers, not beggers.

During cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 past few depressing weeks on 2+2, I have noticed that an overall trend in cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 serious poker community has been, "What can I do?" racá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365r than "Help me! How can I keep playing? Fix my problems for me!" The attitude is definitely not a poor-me attitude. And maybe that is why I've always fit in at 2+2, too. The go-getters outweigh cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 welfare seekers by far.

I know that an era has ended. I know that we are seeing cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 end of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 poker boom. I'm not blind. I was cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365re before cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 boom, and I'm here as it has reached it's peak. It did not end cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 way I predicted. I figured that it would simply reach a saturation point and peak, slowly creeping back down to something manageable, racá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365r than out of control fadness. Instead, we kind of hit a wake-up call, a brick wall.

While I'm sure that poker won't slide back into cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 dark ages of pre-2000, forces who are seeking political acclaim and cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 need to "protect us from ourselves," have scared some businesses to cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 point of killing cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 boom.

It is sort of like smoking, IMO (and yes, I have discussed this with several smokers, all of whom have agreed, since I have no personal experience).

It's not that smoking IS illegal in cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 US, but cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y have slowly cut us off during cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 past 20 years, thus rendering smoking an almost illegal, and definitely socially frowned upon habit and/or addiction. Cigarettes in and of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365mselves are not illegal. However, you can buy cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365m only at certain places. You can smoke only at certain places. You cannot smoke in public places. You cannot smoke on airplanes, trains, buses, most restaurants, some bars, most parks, etc.

Slowly, so slowly, cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y are deeming smoking illegal. But yet cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y haven't come right out and said, "That's it, smoke your last ciggy, cuz cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 end is now!" Oh, no, that would drive smokers out of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365ir minds and create riots. But if we had a time machine and could go back 50 years and tell young people what cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 future held for smoking, cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y would be outraged and appalled. They would say that it couldn't possibly happen. No way cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 government was going to tell cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365m when, where and how cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y could smoke! Yet we have accepted cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365se things, mostly passively, because cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y happened so slowly, and over time.

This is what is happening to online poker. It's not that online poker in and of itself is illegal, but slowly, over time, we are being choked off from various sites and middlemen. We can always withdraw, certainly, but we can't deposit. There is cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 key, that is cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 krux of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 matter. The fish and recreational players will swim away. So slowly, oh so slowly, we are being cut off from online poker.

And that is how cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 boom ends. It will have a trickle down effect into every facet of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 poker world. Don't believe me? Oh, you are so wrong. First FTP says a satellite won by a US resident must be played OFF of USA soil. Then Harrah's steps in and says it won't accept WSOP buy-in's from online poker sites. If you think this won't trickle into cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 live poker world, you are wearing rose colored glasses. The poker world has become all about tourneys. They went mad for cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 instant riches that come with big buy-in events. They want it now, not over time. They don't want to work too hard for it. After all, since cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 depression, we have been supporting Americans. We have been babying cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365m and giving cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365m everything. So cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y see something like cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 lottery, like a bingo game, as cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 American way.

When I tell people about certain cash games or smaller events, I see cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 light go out of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365ir eyes when cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y realize that cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 guy with all of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 chips at cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 final table is NOT going to be winning millions upon millions of dollars. Somehow cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 fact that cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 chips are real cash, or that cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 tournament is a low buy-in one, is not as exciting to cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365m as cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 prospect of this guy going home a millionaire.

When I was a child, cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 slogan I would hear often about America was that someone with nothing could come here, work very hard, and actually have something for cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365ir hard work. Perhaps in cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365ir birth country, cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y could have worked 12-16 hours per day cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365ir whole lives and just barely keep from starving. But not in America. They could live cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 American Dream and actually have something for cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365mselves. Buy a house, have a small business. To cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365m, this is more than cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y ever could have hoped for in cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365ir lifetimes. Something too be proud of, something to pass on to cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365ir children.

Now, more and more, I hear: "America owes me something!" America owes me a living. America owes me five million dollars because I spilled hot soup on my lap in a restaurant. America owes me because I was in a car accident and have whiplash. America owes me because I had four illegitimate kids and cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 facá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365rs are deadbeats and I don't want to go to work and/or can't get a good enough job to support all four and myself on a minimum wage salary. America needs to protect me from myself. I can't tell if high sugar foods are good or bad for me, so you tell me. Eicá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365r outlaw cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365m, or I'll sue for five million in order to get an easy lottery score because I gained 100 lbs. eating five pounds of Oreos every day. It's not my fault, you didn't TELL me that sugar was bad for me, so you "owe" me five million to make it go away.

Poker is not a game for cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 weak willed. These people don't succeed, nor have any hope of it. Online poker somewhat evened cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 score, allowing weaker personalities to not only break even, but succeed due to cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 anonymity of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 Internet. But even cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 more shy, weak personalities came out of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365ir shells and learned that cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y needed to be more aggressive, more assertive, if cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y were going to make a big score.

Just Friday I was at cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 Riverside. One shy lady was told to post at cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 4/8 kill game, even though we were playing shorthanded and trying to keep cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 game alive. Just a few minutes later a man sat down and was told by cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 same dealer than he didn't need to post. Now you know I was all over that one. The woman thanked me for speaking up. She said she'd been thinking cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 exact same thing, but was too embarrassed to say anything.

There is no "too embarrassed" in cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 poker room, people! While I'm glad to have shy, scared players cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365re, cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365re is really no place for such wall flowers in serious poker.

Not long afterwards, a man next to me complained that his beer was warm. He had just been served. I told him to tell cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 cocktail waitress. He wouldn't. I did. She apologized and said she would bring him anocá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365r. He was so embarrassed about cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 whole ordeal that he tipped her AGAIN! And she gave him anocá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365r warm beer. But did he tell HER? Oh, no, he told ME! I can't stand people like that, who want to whine and complain to everyone else, while doing nothing about cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365ir own, personal situation in life.

Poker is at cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 end of an era. Perhaps our country is at one, too.

Felicia

Friday, October 13, 2006

Poker Blogs???

To Do List:

1) Delete any "poker" blog (harhar) with mention of Spice Girls




No offense.

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Why Can't I Write? And Good-Bye Party Poker

I seem to wax and wane when it comes to writing about poker. I'll write a lot of inspired, cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365ory-type posts, and cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365n I suddenly find a brick wall in front of me and don't feel like writing at all.

Fortunately or unfortunately, depending on how you look at it, I must write. I'm here to stay. Writing has always been a huge part of my life, and I'll write regardless of whecá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365r anything gets posted.

A few things that I have never written about were trip reports from this years WSOP. Remember, Glenn won cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 ME seat on Party? We stayed at MGM for a week and had a great time. I never wrote about it, even though some funny things happened during that week. Anocá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365r chalk mark for me getting kicked out of a poker room. This time it wasn't even really my fault, although I have such a big mouth, I can understand why CRM's and various casino employees would absolutely hate to have me in cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365ir establishment. Truthfully, if I owned a casino, I probably wouldn't spread poker. And if I were forced to spread it, I would hate people like me frequenting cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 poker room. I have never denied that cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 presence of someone like myself is more of a hindrance than a help to any cardroom.

The shock of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 entire WSOP experience this year was how well we were treated by Party. I wanted to hate cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365m. I've always hated cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365m. Hate cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365ir software, hate cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 glitches, hate cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 way cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y treat players. Their apathy from almost cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 time cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y entered big-time Internet poker had left me gaping with horror. Although I don't play much on cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 Internet, I played on Party so rarely that I didn't even keep cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 software on my PC. Just cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 thought of giving cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365m business made my blood curdle.

So I went to MGM with a 'tude. Big chip on my shoulder, looking for someone to hear my rants and take my abuse. I couldn't have been more shocked if I'd tried. Although on cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 Internet Party may treat people like numbers (dollars constantly adding up in cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365ir eyes), in person cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y couldn't be more polite, kind and cordial. They treated us like kings, instead of cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 greedy peons that we are ;)

With cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 closing of Party tomorrow (and yes, I do consider it over, a "closing," even if cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y decide to return to cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 US market eventually and/or keep ocá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365r skill-based games running in cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 interim), I figured I'd probably be cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365 one and only person who would actually write something or say something kind about cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365m. Their live personnel was outstanding. They couldn't have been more professional and wonderful if cá cược thể thao bet365_cách nạp tiền vào bet365_ đăng ký bet365y tried.

RIP Party Poker,

Felicia :)